It just was.

Maybe I did want it to look bad.
Maybe I was showing people that makeup and camera angles are lies.

In the picture I look like a troll.

Maybe I am a troll, and it’s the lipstick that’s lying.

Maybe I’m old. It’s cold, so I feel old.
Just the time change, and the winter?

I dunno.
Ask in May.

Maybe I should feel free to be ugly.
Maybe I should stop caring what people think.

If I stopped looking at myself in the mirror, what would happen?

(I mean, other than permanent spinach in my teeth.
And probably getting my hair stuck on stuff
Because it is so tangled
Without a comb.)

Would I feel freer?

Would I feel freer?

Maybe I’ve been focused on the wrong things, all this time.
Maybe the mirror is the wrong place to look.

What do you think?

Is it the inside of my head that counts?

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Me. Just now. Copyright me.

I still write sometimes, and I have a buttload of already-written stuff. So there you go.

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